Edgard N.

A Journey Between Worlds

I live at the intersection of two ways of knowing. One is precise, structured, and technical. It is the world of systems, logic, and software. The other is silent, spacious, and intimate. It is the world of awareness, presence, and direct experience.

My daily work happens in software engineering. I design flows, reason about state, remove unnecessary complexity, and help systems behave reliably under pressure. Over time, I realized that this work mirrors something much deeper inside us. A clear system requires attention, humility, and patience. So does a clear inner life.

Alongside code, another inquiry slowly took root. A quieter one. Questions about who is actually living this life, who is aware of these thoughts, and what remains when nothing needs to be improved or fixed. The teachings of Douglas Harding and Alan Watts did not give me answers. They helped me notice what was already here.

This page exists at that meeting point. Between building things in the world and learning to rest as the one who experiences the world. Between doing and being. Between effort and ease.

Professional Path

I am a software engineer by practice and by temperament. I enjoy understanding how complex systems behave, how small decisions scale over time, and how clarity can be introduced where confusion slowly accumulates. My work has mostly lived in backend systems, checkout flows, and distributed environments where correctness and reliability truly matter.

For many years, I have worked on the Zooplus platform, contributing to order placement, payment routing, and customer facing flows that operate at significant scale. This kind of work teaches responsibility. When systems fail, people feel it. When they work well, nobody notices, and that is often the goal.

Beyond the technical side, I care deeply about how teams work together. I believe good engineering is rarely about brilliance and often about listening, slowing down, and choosing simplicity over ego. I enjoy mentoring, sharing context, and helping others grow into confidence rather than control.

Engineering, for me, is not only a profession. It is a way of relating to reality with honesty. Seeing what is actually happening. Accepting constraints. Acting carefully. Letting systems teach you where they resist.

A Spiritual Note

My spiritual path is not separate from everyday life. It did not arrive as a dramatic event or a belief system. It unfolded quietly, through attention, exhaustion, curiosity, and a growing sense that something essential was being overlooked.

At some point, the question stopped being how to improve myself and became much simpler. Who is aware of this moment right now. Who is hearing these sounds. Who is seeing through these eyes. When this question is allowed to stay open, something relaxes.

“You are not a drop in the ocean — you are the ocean looking at itself through a drop.”

Alan Watts taught me that much of our suffering comes from taking our mental models too seriously. Douglas Harding taught me to look directly instead of thinking. To notice that at the center of experience, there is openness rather than an object.

This understanding does not remove difficulty from life. It changes the relationship to it. Thoughts still appear. Emotions still move. Responsibilities remain. But they happen within a wider space, one that does not need to be defended.

I do not try to escape the world. I try to meet it more honestly. With presence instead of constant reaction. With curiosity instead of certainty. With care instead of control.